// #sydney — 2014-07-07
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00:20:00 <MrMark> sexy!!!
00:21:00 <lo> where
00:21:00 <MrMark> yes
00:24:00 <lo> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hz2L1v7Wkx8
00:24:00 <BlackDevil> Youtube: Cristy Lane - One Day At A Time (Oct 6, 2008) 3:24 - Category: Music - 1,093,259 - 3,261 likes (97.1%), 98 dislikes (2.9%)
00:24:00 <lo> lol silly song
00:29:00 <lo> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RgG-zEaaF3E
00:29:00 <BlackDevil> Youtube: MEL GIBSON SHOOTS AT DOGS (Date not found) 0:33 - Category: People & Blogs - 9,206 - 43 likes (91.5%), 4 dislikes (8.5%)
00:34:00 <Brax> That dudes been saying, wanna blow job all day
00:36:00 <lo> lol
00:47:00 <lo> :^)
03:32:00 <dudz> morning
03:40:00 <dudz> right!
07:24:00 <J0ffa> lolololol
07:54:00 <J0ffa> WOOKIE
07:55:00 <J0ffa> my last day of being poor Imo :)
07:57:00 <Wookie> and im supposed to fucken care?
07:57:00 <Wookie> coz care factor = 0
07:58:00 <J0ffa> lol
07:59:00 <J0ffa> old cranky bitch this morning
07:59:00 <Wookie> i get paid on friday so i dont really care
07:59:00 <J0ffa> i get more
07:59:00 <Wookie> so fucking what
08:17:00 <J0ffa> glen glen glennnnnn
08:31:00 <dudz> morning
08:31:00 <J0ffa> dudley spew
08:31:00 <dudz> hi Glenn
08:31:00 <dudz> so i type to much, thats my main addiction
08:31:00 <J0ffa> wheres the man of the hour, EXO?
08:32:00 <dudz> J0ffa: don't you have a bong or a bag of powder or a pipe to smoke instead of being on irc?
08:32:00 <dudz> this is what you do when you have spare time from that hey
08:33:00 <J0ffa> LOL
08:33:00 <J0ffa> GLENN
08:33:00 <J0ffa> i didnt do anything wrong
08:41:00 <dudz> right so i'm taking a note of the escelation process
08:41:00 <dudz> i think i should talk to lawer though but there are things that i don't really want to happen, so if i have one, they might help let things happen that i can't do myself so if i can't do it myself i dont just want to be a follower and let someone else push something that i might not let happen from lack of feeling like i should.
08:42:00 <dudz> but they would be the wrong person to talk to because they want their job title of what they do in the industry they are involved in to be tittled with 'profesional'
08:43:00 <dudz> so they will have drive and push in area's that i wont, and quick responces scripted in their mind for howto push things out the ways they want.
08:43:00 <dudz> cause of this entire, build in mindset from everyone to have right at the roots, think of themselves first and their own well being.
08:44:00 <dudz> i'm trying to find where mine is, i have been conditioned to think this way as well to some degree
08:44:00 <dudz> but being able to perform and achieve different things, it has to be about more than just yourself.
08:45:00 <dudz> if you are working towards achieving somethign soley for yourself, wthout at least showing that you are trying to help others, you wont get support and the feelings and emotions you are searching for wont survive,
08:49:00 <dudz> yeah just not sure how to word the entire escelation process but i'll put more time into thinking of it anyway, thats all i'll need i think to get across and then if the majistrate believes me will be the next thing
08:50:00 <dudz> thats why i think of it kind of like a audition, because i am trying to get across things that i can say comfortably with the feeling that is true, but they will want me to break down into an emotional mess in order for them to believe me and i don't really want people to see me that way.
08:51:00 <dudz> cause i almost broke down in the cell, with allt he thoughts i had going through my mind abotu containment, and conditioned and air conditions and people talking near me and looking and seeing me in there, and the sitting and lighting and all these things that just made me want to escape
08:52:00 <dudz> i'm grateful anyway for that entire experience
08:52:00 <dudz> this is all typing from my mind
08:54:00 <dudz> i'm just trying to work through and figure things out
08:54:00 <dudz> decide what decisions to make etc
08:54:00 <dudz> offer whats in my mind for others if they want or can see it useful or have something they don't like about it that theyf eel like is apropriate to comment on
08:55:00 <dudz> keep my mind active too while i have no job, trying to work towards obtaining a job and how i can get there
08:56:00 <dudz> the jobs i know i should have are ones that have limitations in place preventing me from being allowed access to them because i havn't followed the generally aproved and accepted methods of mental conditioning myself through public or an aproved form of education.
08:58:00 <dudz> which has been mainly my strugle through not being able to afford or setting aside enough money through the quest to obtaining money and knowledge i have no money left available to support the education system
08:58:00 <dudz> i consider myself capable of self-training, self-managing.
08:58:00 <dudz> what will happen if i continue on this path though, i'll just end up geting thrown intoa mental asilym i guess
08:59:00 <dudz> because i didn't follow the aproved methods, and my emotions and feelings get considered too dangerous if i don't get enough supporters.
09:00:00 <dudz> all it takes is for me to find one person who believes in me anyway, then to keep that persons trust
09:00:00 <dudz> thats the way i see what i'm doing or trying to do as suceeding
09:00:00 <dudz> and i dont have to go against anyones beliefs, its one on one, and thats where i thrive at
09:01:00 <dudz> what was my brand before
09:01:00 <dudz> hehe
09:02:00 <dudz> so there is much confusion, that much is clear? :P
09:02:00 <dudz> i'm gonna cook up some bacon and eggs <3, brb
09:05:00 <J0ffa> yeh
09:05:00 <J0ffa> filled up the channel with useless crap
09:05:00 <J0ffa> bravo
09:21:00 <dudz> yeah wasn't really helpful to anyone who hasn't got the dedication or commitment to try
09:22:00 <dudz> thats where i draw me longterm support in
09:22:00 <dudz> send out me spores, provide them with an idea, then i gottem <3, and we muturally spend our time trying to keep things on good terms between each other
09:22:00 <dudz> thats the longterm challenges we face in our relationships we have with each other.
09:25:00 <dudz> but its dangerous cause when you let a junkie know about something or let them see something done in a way and show how easy it is, they will replicate and exploit it, thats why i don't like you J0ffa
09:25:00 <dudz> i consider you a junkie class.
09:26:00 <dudz> you will take what you can while you feel like you can, then you'll be off for a while,
09:26:00 <dudz> maybe come back later with a new nick, try again
09:28:00 <dudz> if my text is even read by you then you can get the opertunitity to feel insulted, but because of how long the lines are, the chances of you not finding any depth is a way of hiding things from people like you.
09:28:00 <Wookie> lol
09:29:00 <Wookie> well said <3
09:29:00 <dudz> <3
09:29:00 <J0ffa> yeh
09:29:00 <J0ffa> filled up the channel with useless crap
09:29:00 <J0ffa> bravo
09:29:00 <dudz> yep
09:29:00 <dudz> everything you said, nothing real, only what you want to believe.
09:29:00 <dudz> same as me, but i'm making more of an effort
09:30:00 <dudz> anyway i shouldn't do that, i like trying to find more meaning to things
09:31:00 <dudz> meaning takes time to define
09:32:00 <dudz> so what do you reckon Wookie , just to find me some of that their desired confidence, to get me the things that i feel like i need to find my place.
09:32:00 <Wookie> good idea ;p
09:32:00 <dudz> <3
09:33:00 <dudz> just talking with my bro this morning, making him laugh is good, people need that, i like feeling like i can offer it.
09:33:00 <Wookie> :)
09:34:00 <dudz> thats where the road of conforming has brought me, cause we are more than one person in this society we try keep.
10:03:00 <dudz> just to find the courage to call this male from a recruitment agency
10:05:00 <Wookie> ;p
10:07:00 <Wookie> haha
10:07:00 <dudz> yeah thats not the worrst that he could say, he could break me and make me feel worthless, thats what i don't want to happen.
10:07:00 <Wookie> they shouldnt
10:07:00 <dudz> i'll let him though if he starts going down certain paths with the way he wants to talk to me
10:08:00 <dudz> i should try be more incharge of the conversation perhaps, hmm
10:08:00 <lx> ...ah huh...
10:08:00 <J0ffa> filled up the channel with useless crap
10:08:00 <J0ffa> bravo
10:08:00 <J0ffa> lololol
10:08:00 <dudz> because i didn't offer you drugs hey
10:09:00 <dudz> or money
10:10:00 <Wookie> ;p
10:10:00 <Wookie> i havent got much patience atm
10:10:00 <dudz> hehe
10:10:00 <dudz> in different places hey
10:10:00 <Wookie> mm
10:11:00 <dudz> we all got paitence i think, unless your real skinny and under nurrished, then your focus is more on primal needs
10:11:00 <Wookie> mine died when i got up with that headache lol
10:11:00 <dudz> so you got no time for much else other than obtaining what you need at all times to keep surviving
10:11:00 <dudz> oh dear :>
10:12:00 <Wookie> yeh
10:12:00 <dudz> actually though those africans who are well under nurrished, but after a while they lose the drive and just start to slowly give up and not move much
10:12:00 <Wookie> i should be up moving around so on but im not
10:33:00 <dudz> mr cYbR
10:34:00 <cYbR> ohay
10:37:00 <cYbR> how goes it duz
10:37:00 <cYbR> dudz
10:47:00 <dudz> yeah just trying to activate me sim, the iccid is not being recognized
10:49:00 <lo> do i install mirc
10:49:00 <lo> to get passed stupid bann
10:49:00 <lo> only reason they can bann ppl is baning client they use
10:51:00 <lo> only reason i banned from melbourne is so someone can be slut in that channel
10:52:00 <lo> can someone fuck element off with his ctcp versions
10:52:00 <lo> zline that faggot\
10:52:00 <lo> for good
10:54:00 <lo> he is cyber bully
10:54:00 <lo> deserves to be locked up
10:54:00 <lo> so do ops from melbourne
10:54:00 <lo> they have told me to kill myself
10:55:00 <lo> well when someone does shrooms trying to kill themselffs
10:55:00 <lo> gets drug psychosis
10:55:00 <lo> u dont tell them to kill themselfs
10:55:00 <lo> element fuck off with the ctcp
10:56:00 <lo> ignore dont work]
10:56:00 <lo> element must be 12
10:56:00 <lo> he definite not adlut
10:57:00 <lo> but i want to chat to ppl
10:57:00 <lo> not have some cunt from nsw stalk me
11:00:00 <lo> he just upset i didnt fuck his wife
11:00:00 <lo> ive seen his car out the front
11:00:00 <lo> b4
11:01:00 <lo> i not stupid
11:01:00 <lo> i know who the faggot is
11:01:00 <cYbR> lol
11:01:00 <cYbR> looool
11:01:00 <cYbR> this place is like the Windale of the internet
11:01:00 <Wookie> lo... im sure the person your talking about should know all this
11:02:00 <lo> hi lovely Wookie
11:03:00 <lo> my cat is on back of my chair
11:03:00 <lo> once the cops came
11:03:00 <lo> and like i know then
11:03:00 <lo> and like
11:03:00 <lo> i not stupid
11:04:00 <lo> i never forget a face
11:04:00 <Wookie> so you said
11:04:00 <Wookie> give the long line typing a break...
11:06:00 <dudz> :)
11:06:00 <dudz> so recovery, i guess thats what i'll spend this entire week doing, hmm
11:06:00 <lx> ...ah huh...
11:07:00 <dudz> got this pain in my chest, i dono if its physical injury , it is in a way, but it might be my actual veins cause i was under alot of stress, and i was doing this hyperventilating type thing which put my body through a huge workout
11:08:00 <dudz> and i've been like skating heaps recently, been very active, lost alot of weight in a short amount of time,
11:08:00 <dudz> i'm over doing something i think,
11:08:00 <dudz> but i dont want to lose what i've gained,
11:09:00 <dudz> i still want to go out and skate though
11:10:00 <dudz> just to keep geting out of the house, i dont want to type so much, but i'm still doing it :(
11:10:00 <dudz> problem pushing anyway
11:11:00 <dudz> keep me problems to meself
11:12:00 <dudz> yeah this will be fun in a way,
11:21:00 <dudz> 98wpm, but my acuracy reduces when i try aim for higher wpm
11:21:00 <dudz> typeracer.com ^
11:22:00 <dudz> actually one had a typo in it and that wasted me heaps of time but i still managed like 81wpm even after having to try over come that the software wanted me to duplicate the typo
11:22:00 <dudz> judgment they spelt it instead of judgement
11:33:00 <inghyy> when r u giving
11:33:00 <inghyy> the seminar/.'
11:34:00 <Wookie> away [r: Quick Away]
11:35:00 <dudz> :)
11:35:00 <dudz> mental anquish ay
11:35:00 <dudz> *anguish
11:35:00 <Wookie> yep
11:36:00 <dudz> :>
11:36:00 <Wookie> :)
11:36:00 <dudz> so what do you reckon Wookie , have i made enough of an impression to see the usefull ness in having my mind put towards something more than just sitting at home on the pc in my parents house, not contributing to society in the regular means that are socially accepted by having myself a full-time place of employment?
11:37:00 <Wookie> yup
11:37:00 <dudz> arh beauty :)
11:37:00 <dudz> just to figure out howto convince others then i'm in <3
11:38:00 <Wookie> yeh
11:38:00 <dudz> i am capable of providing a steady state and looking out for people, thats something i reckon i could bring but i want to assess and suss out the work environment first, see what i feel like is needed and then work towards contributing towards those things, while performing my roles i've been hired to, i dont just want to go there do stuff leave, that attitude is something that i can't be content with.
11:40:00 <dudz> to start with i'll do that until i feel confident and comfortable that i'm performing
11:45:00 <Wookie> ah
11:45:00 <lo> ic
11:46:00 <lo> element grow up
11:46:00 <lo> i dont care i banned from melbourne
11:47:00 <lo> fucken ctcp faggot
11:47:00 <Wookie> element isnt in here?
11:47:00 <lo> do u want me install mirc right script to do it to u
11:47:00 <lo> he is here he is hiding
11:48:00 <lo> he thinks his smart cause he wrote 4 line script
11:49:00 <lo> its austnet
11:49:00 <lo> not elenet
11:49:00 <Wookie> blah do u ever shut up
11:54:00 <dudz> weee so that was cool <3
11:54:00 <dudz> got a phone call just earlier from this chap from an employment agency, gonna give me a hand in applying for one of these roles he has, giving me some suggestions on howto re-word my cv
11:54:00 <dudz> then we are gonna chat on skype later today
11:54:00 <dudz> gave me compliments and confidence <3
11:55:00 <dudz> practiced me verbal communication a little
11:55:00 <dudz> when you care so much about things stuff like anxiety comes up, when your trying so hard to present yourself and find the head space people want you in and where you need to be in for effective communication
11:56:00 <dudz> i feel good about this , just to keep focused.
12:00:00 <Wookie> yeh
12:52:00 <dudz> good morning Skirmish
12:53:00 <Brax> Good morning dudzski
12:53:00 <dudz> hows the day of yours doing in this weather are are having through our shared environmental conditions and chat program exposure to one another ?
12:53:00 <dudz> hmm
12:53:00 <lx> ...ah huh...
12:53:00 <dudz> *and are
12:53:00 <dudz> *and are you
12:53:00 <dudz> fuck, i messed that entire line up
12:53:00 <dudz> anyway you got the gist <3
12:55:00 <Brax> yes , our weather is shit lol
12:55:00 <Brax> its Kinda fucked
12:55:00 <dudz> so i usually get arrested for public urination Skirmish, and then escelate the entire process through being argumentative when the exchange of AUD's i don't have gets suggested in the form of a fine, then escelate further and further to the extend where a court case is needed to be attended at the waverly area if your free perhaps and wanna check out how i perform in my social interview/induction
12:56:00 <dudz> frustration from my unemployment, causing a public display, somewhat contained by being down a side street but close to a main road
12:56:00 <Brax> what ya on about confused here.
12:57:00 <dudz> and near many units
12:57:00 <Brax> you can't get a job becuase , of you're records?
12:57:00 <Brax> crimnal records?
12:57:00 <Wookie> @dudz, has a criminal record?
12:57:00 <dudz> it's a shame that i was chosen to be used as an example, but for me it was more about the expectation that i pay, when i havn't even been accepted yet by society to be allowed to participate in the work force in the industry i feel like i belong in.
12:58:00 <Wookie> hm
12:58:00 <Brax> dno, im asking him
12:58:00 <Brax> Wookie
12:58:00 <Wookie> im with you on that one dudz
12:58:00 <Wookie> im a trained nurse but cant work in aged are
12:58:00 <Wookie> care
12:58:00 <Brax> sometimes you gotta , be really close too friends, but sometimes, friends fuck you over
12:58:00 <dudz> hey my sisters a registerd nurse
12:59:00 <dudz> my brothers gf is too
12:59:00 <Brax> you can't get a job if you have a crimnal record
12:59:00 <Brax> :>
12:59:00 <Wookie> um yah we know?
12:59:00 <Brax> becuase most jobs now they look into your record
12:59:00 <dudz> see how this pans out, i am still trying to keep my focus on employment though and not think to deeply about this entire thing.
12:59:00 <dudz> i dont know that the records will be valid yet
13:00:00 <dudz> since i havn't apeard in court yet
13:00:00 <dudz> they will go through afterwards i guess
13:00:00 <dudz> i spoke on the phone to a man from a recruitment company who has a job that he thinks i can get, in a datacentre working for amazon
13:00:00 <Brax> dosent matter dudzski
13:01:00 <dudz> i emailed him back a long cover letter and asked for his help in wording things into my cv
13:01:00 <Brax> they still pick that up
13:01:00 <dudz> we will be chatting on skype later today i believe
13:02:00 <Brax> anything , they see on your records they, say, no sorry, you got a crimnal record dudzski
13:02:00 <dudz> i think why they came to me though, theres publicity going on about urination and its association with skateboarders, i want to stear this entire profiling thing away from me, i play no part in these activities the general media pushes out i dont even pay attention to that garbage either, i'm trying to push things out into society that i think are ok
13:02:00 <dudz> but yeah, that pissing was somewhat contained, i can go on about it but in the end, i'll just have to see what is worth mentioning
13:03:00 <dudz> i dont really want to talk to much about it, just thought to mention it to Skirmish cause i know he has interests in certain types of things.
13:04:00 <Brax> yes well your chatting about this , like its politics
13:04:00 <dudz> keeping my head in the space of i.t
13:05:00 <dudz> but yeah, i really don't want to be apart of alot of things society does, i keep to myself irl
13:05:00 <dudz> learning howto be aproachable has got me into this issue i believe, i've gained attention, learning that skill, but i gained it from the people i dont need attention from,
13:05:00 <dudz> but there are things to learn here, i learnt more about my physical indurance
13:06:00 <dudz> being contained and digity striped from me
13:06:00 <dudz> *dignity
13:06:00 <dudz> many injuries to my body have acured over the past few weeks
13:07:00 <dudz> i'm compensating through a high protine diet
13:08:00 <dudz> many emotional changes are acuring to me as well.
13:08:00 <dudz> i'm getting close to danger but trying to find things to hold onto.
13:09:00 <dudz> things people do daily that i have not been participating in
13:10:00 <dudz> go for a skate in a bit, get out in the sun
13:11:00 <dudz> i need to find some more sources of meat to consume, being broke until tomorrow, that reminds me to fill out my c-link form <3
13:13:00 <dudz> anyway
13:34:00 <inghyy> wookieeeeeeeeeee
13:34:00 <inghyy> when?
14:47:00 <J0ffa> searchin for my lost shaker of salt
14:47:00 <J0ffa> some people claim, theres a woman to blame
14:52:00 <J0ffa> Wookie
14:53:00 <Skirmish> Kuniva returns. I am told you have been getting banned due to your immaturity joel.
14:54:00 <J0ffa> ?
14:54:00 <J0ffa> who is this guy
14:54:00 <J0ffa> never seen him b4
14:55:00 <Chris> lol
14:57:00 <J0ffa> I am purchasing Pringles tomorrow
14:57:00 <J0ffa> cant stop until u pop
14:57:00 <Chris> yeah they arnt a bad snack
14:57:00 <J0ffa> yes
14:58:00 <J0ffa> and perhaps pizza with my gf for dinner
14:58:00 <J0ffa> if she gets her butt over here :'(
14:59:00 <J0ffa> this is tomorrow
14:59:00 <J0ffa> because i am broke today
14:59:00 <J0ffa> getting a payment tomorrow
14:59:00 <Chris> payments are good
15:19:00 <J0ffa> yes
15:19:00 <J0ffa> chris
15:20:00 <J0ffa> payment is very goot
15:23:00 <Skirmish> Tomorrow is centrelink day is it J0ffa?
15:23:00 <J0ffa> Correct
15:23:00 <J0ffa> $752.70 after loan comes out
15:23:00 <Chris> Thats not much to live on hey
15:24:00 <Skirmish> You're lucky your parents let you live at home.
15:24:00 <J0ffa> :-)
15:26:00 <Skirmish> Do you think your girlfriend will get tired of you being on the dole sooner or later and hook up with a guy that has a job?
15:26:00 <Chris> Hi FOBZTA
15:27:00 <Skirmish> How old is your gf J0ffa?
15:28:00 <FOBZTA> Afternoon
15:30:00 <Wookie> bet shes 69 with no teeth
15:46:00 <J0ffa> HAHAAAHAHHAHAHAHAH
15:47:00 <J0ffa> Glenn how many times have we had this discussion
15:47:00 <J0ffa> Wookie is a trigger happy fat mole
15:47:00 <J0ffa> Remove the ops
15:48:00 <Wookie> hes not the one who added me
15:48:00 <J0ffa> Make the channel a happy place
15:48:00 <J0ffa> God forbid who ever did
15:48:00 <J0ffa> You just ban everyone
15:48:00 <Wookie> i can send you back out if your going to be a rude prick
15:48:00 <J0ffa> I think a meeting is needed
15:49:00 <J0ffa> or ill get my friends in here
15:49:00 <J0ffa> AAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAH
15:49:00 <Wookie> im scared
15:49:00 <Wookie> i think ill leave you on that for the rest of the day
15:56:00 <lo> hiyas
15:56:00 <lo> :)
15:57:00 <lo> figured once is just bullshit
15:57:00 <lo> if its gonna be once why do it in first place
15:59:00 <lo> what the fuck happened in my place when i was locked up
16:00:00 <lo> nah just i get a bad vibe
16:00:00 <lo> its driven me insane
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